A quick update….today I called my neurologist’s office again to get my results of my spinal MRI, “We’ll call you back”, they said. Like I haven’t heard that before. Called the MS association to see where I can go that will except my insurance and the closet place is Boston so I’m going back there. I called my PCP to see if she got my results and, she called me back herself!! That’s rare she never received a copy either. Next I called medical records and sure enough they said ya come on down and get a copy we’re waiting for you. I went got my copy and it states….I have degenerative disc disease, disc protrusions, tumors, budges, hemangiomas, spinal stenosis etc…. so it’s not looing so good 😦 Still have not heard from my OLD (now) neurologist and the next appointment I could get isn’t until the end of January and he specifically said “don’t giver her a follow up appointment”! This is absolutely ridiculous! I have a bad feeling something else is going on considering my PCP said I should see a cancer specialist. Honestly, I’m scared to go to sleep, lift something to heavy, miss out on anything that has to do with my kid’s and family etc… I have never been so scared in my whole life it would be different if I didn’t kids or a wonderful family and boyfriend (he’s great). If it wasn’t for my family (and my bf) we wouldn’t be having a Christmas, have food, pay bills etc… I hate taking anything from anyone and I’m not supposed to be helpless, I’m supposed to be helpful. I hate this, I hate this, I hate this!! I apologize from the bottom of my heart if I ever offended anyone (family, friends) anyone who reads this. It was never my intention I don’t think I did anything to but, everyone has their own morals 😉
I don’t know what else to do anymore but I WILL NOT JUST ROLL OVER AND DIE!!!! NEVER!!! If anyone has any suggestions on how I can get the ball rolling on getting the medication I need ASAP please comment or like this blog so WE can be heard!!! To everyone who reads this or follows me or has reached out I hold a special place in my heart for all of you thank you!!!
What bother me the most is people who judge what they don’t know because they can’t see OUR PAIN, or blame it on being lazy believe me I have no time to be lazy! Close minded people who don’t understand until they have walked just a day in OUR shoes. Well, I hope to change that someday! I love you all ❤