I wanted to give a quick update about how the book is coming. I have started writing, that’s what I’ve been doing every night until around 3:30 a.m.. Living the “write life” I call it. I love it and it’s made me comes to terms with my “new” reality my new life and a new and improved Jenny!
What I mean by new and improved is; I know who I am, I act exactly like who I am, I don’t hide away at home anymore. I have excepted my new health situation as well as future circumstances.
The journey of learning how to deal, act, talk and think about me having MS is over….for now. WE don’t need to explain every aspect of our health and our lives to anyone, because why should we feel obligated to answer questions for other about us? Why must they ask? For something to talk about later with their friends, or maybe something new to post on your Facebook page so they look “cool,” and play “Facebook life,” as in my life is awesome and way better than your! Those ones you have to just not associate yourself with its not worth your time or mine.
So onto the new journey and I can’t wait its already started!!! I’m starting to write my first book for my book series. I have dreamed of this since I was a child and now it is really happening. I have a fantastic co-author and a great team working extremely hard on this. I’ll just say it’s different, the books will be on a specific different subject each time one is released.
I have always believed everything happens for a reason. A Professor I had in school said, ” everything happens for a good reason.” I tried making that my frame of thought, and it worked, it made me happier and it made me want more. I learned meditation for mindfulness and it works, it honestly helps and works. Anyway, if I didn’t have MS I wouldn’t have had this wonderful opportunity to turn a dream a young girl once had, into a reality. I most likely would be working in the wrong field, and I may have not wanted to continue my education, and obtain a third degree in a different field of interest I have always been in love with.
I am not saying I am happy I have MS, I’m saying I learned how to EMBRACE it! I have learned to make most of my negatives into positives and/or embrace the good and the bad areas of my life. We may have the same disease, career, we could even be identical twins, but we all walk our own paths. The greatest part is, we all will meet at the end of a conquered life. We come out survivors, which we always have been, NOT the victim’s. In my support groups we call ourselves, “MS Warriors,” for me it’s because; I have survived, I have became strong, found who I really am and how to show it, I fight my own battles and I will help you fight yours. I pride in myself, I love myself, and I love life because I always remind myself, it can always be worse look how far I have come already. I live in today and right now, the past is called the past for a reason, and tomorrow I’ll worry about tomorrow, today I will worry about now!